help!

gw pnya seseorg. seseorg ini dlu dket aja sih sama gw tp kalo ga ada dy, gw ngerasa empty banget.

we used to be good friends. we used to hang out together. we used to chit chat, scuttlebutt, made those brouhahas in the class. we WERE good friends.

nowadays, MORE than just a friend.

awalnya gw agak ragu sama dy. ato kagok sih tpatnya. luckily, i'm in love with my best. i do care about him. gw sneng banget waktu dy bilang dy jg suka gw. logika gw mkr mgkn bakal lama. tapi ga tw knp prasaan gw ragu banget. gw coba jalanin. and it's just fine. "nothing could go wrong," i said to myself one night.

i was wrong unfortunately.

stlh baru aja bbrp bulan, dy mulai berubah, slowly but sure. berubah banget banget. kalo lu dket pasti kerasa banget. gw crta k tmen gw krn gw bru prtama kali ngalamin ky gni. dy blng cb jlnin dlu aja. mgkn krn kita bakal nghadepin UN dan those school tests jadi dy mw bljr dlu for a while, you have to understand him even he dont ask you to.

oke gw tunggu sampe stlh UN. hari hari UN gw kesiksa banget nungguin sms dia. biasanya sms cm nyapa ato apa gt, gw udh sneng banget. tapi nyatanya inbox gw sepanjang hari kosong melompong. palingan sms dari operator yg bikin dag dig dug kirain sms dr dia. huuh

okedeh, gw pkr hbs UN. sabar tinggal brp hari lagi.

hari trkhir UN, biasa lah hbs pulang kan suka makan tuh. gw ngjk dia makan aja rame2. gw pkr dy bakal balik ky dlu, my old best best friend.but truth always hurts us anyway. that's what happened. gw kecewa bnget.

stlh lama pnantian gw, trnyata ga ada hasil! bah!

gw cb sms akhirnya, soalnya gw yakin dia ga akan belajar lah, wong besoknya lbur jg. gw cb sms singkat padat jelas standar: halo lagi apa?

dia, stlh brp jam kmudian: sbb halo lg mw makan nih brb yah

gw, scpt kilat: okedeh :)

gw tungguin sampe tgh malem, masa sih makan dari siang sampe tgh malem? its impossible, he wasnt eating, he was playing. dan sampe tgh mlm itu gw nungguin sampe putus asa. gw akhirnya beraniin sms: halo masi makan? wkwk

dia ngga bales absolutely definitely no doubt about it.

gw sedih bnget mlm itu, tp gw ngga bsa nangis. mw blogging jg udh kburu bete malas. kebayang apa rasanya?

gw akhirnya imun mw sms dia. takut ngeganggu, takut ngga dibales. muncul pkran aneh2 di pkran gw. mgkn dy bosen? bsa aja. mgkn dy ga pnah syg gw dr awal? bsa aja. mgkn ada org ketiga? bsa banget. gw udh putus harapan, dan itu masih gw rasain sekarang. gw ga tw hrs ngapain. gw mw ngjk dy ngmg serius pun ngga akan ngefek kyny.

everything has a meet and a goodbye, and i guess this relationship has reach its edge. just in time.

p.s. kalo mw nyaranin apa, komen aja. gw trbuka kok, thankful malah :D oya kalo kamu jg baca, dan udh ngrti gmn situasinya ayo ngmg. okay? let's talk.