Pieces of MyWorld.

Haai udh lama ngga ngepost lg sjk sktr oktober yah?
Gw udh lama pengen ngpost, tp kdg suka lupa aja apa yg mau gw tls hahaha. Tiap gw mau nls sllu aja lepas gitu aja dr pikiran gw. Now i get it. Really deep inside.

"I can't be like them, and will never be like them"

Itu yg mau gw triakin k smua org yg mnurut gw setipe. Gw tau gw itu skeptis terkadang, kyk skrg pas gw nulis ini, gw lg di klimaksnya. Gw males banget sama org" macem mereka. Pdhl mrka jg baik kok k gw. Like i said, I'm a skeptical person.

Mrka easy come easy go. Gw tau gw bukan pribadi yg menyenangkan, that's why ppl won't go along with me. Gw tau kok, dan gw memaklumi diri gw yg emg ga bisa gaul.

Bukan jg gw gamau ngebantuin mereka. I really do love to help them. Cuman sometimes mereka emg kelewat batas, menurut pandangan gw yg skeptis ini. Gw susah percaya ama org. Well not that hard, but pretty hard.

Tunggu, sbnrny skeptis tuh apaan sih? Sblm gw nulis ini, gw terpikir 1 kata yaitu skeptis itu sndiri. Gw gatau apa artinya, tp tiba" kata itu nongol di kepala gw. Gw liat k kamus online gw. Skeptic means a person who maintains a doubting attitude, as toward values, plans, statements, or the character of others. Kalo menurut terjemahan gw sih, itu artiny org yg selalu ngeraguin segala hal.

And hell yeah, i do.

Gw mungkin primitif, tapi gw prcaya hal ini. Di dunia ini ga ada hal yg baik" melulu. We have to see beyond buat nilai seseorg, gabisa dari luarannya aja. Gw tau, tiap org ngedeketin gw, dgn ramah senyum teterusan itu pasti ada maunya.

One of my friend just did this afternoon.

Kadang gw pkr mrka tulus, mkny gw mulai ngerasa nyaman sama mrka. But all was just a trick. A BIG HOAX. I don't need those kinda bullshit.

Basically semua org do. Soalny buat ngedapetin apa yg kita mau kita hrs ngedeketin sumber ato seseorg yg bisa bantu kita dpt itu. Gw tau gw itu ga ikhlas dgn ngmg gni, but that's the way i feel.

Gw seneng dimintain bantuan, gw seneng ngebantuin mereka. Tp apa mereka inget gw pas mereka seneng? Cuma pas butuh aja ya ingetnya? Is that what we call 'a friend'? Or should i call them my best friend? Oh shit.

Gw ngajak mereka participate pas gw ada acara, gw pengen mereka involved di idup gw. Tp nyatanya mereka ga butuh gw. Ha, emg gw ni siapa ya? Ga sadar diri apa lu geb? Ngaca geb! Lu bukan siapa".

Gw pernah liat interview ke tmn masa kcilnya pas barrack obama ke indo. Tmnnya itu berapi" gitu kayak udh jd tmn deket banget amat sangat. Kalo emg tmn dket, why don't obama call him? Technologies are making our world closer in distance.

Amin gw sukses suatu hari nanti. Apa gw bakal diperlakuin kyk gitu? Diaku" pas gw ud sukses? Gw tau gw ga spnuhnya bener, gw ga berhak ngmg gini. But this is it. What makes it better, the person personally could read this and plant it on their mind, not to use ppl anymore.