yeah, i've got FAITH in us and i BELIEVE in you and me:)

hmm postingan gw yg ketiga hari ini. terakhir deh sebelon jd bosen posting hehe.

oh iya sebelomnya gw ga mksd nyindir siapapun loh. not even you ken. its only a story kay?:)

jadi gini. td pas plg sekolah kan gw males balik tuh terus masih ada teman" saya gt. trs si addo cerita" gt. tb" dy nanya,"gmn ama ken geb?" gw bilang yhh gitulah sms pun jarang. (not that i blame you darling. i understand:D) trs dy blg,"pasti tlp ya??" gw jawab lagi ngga jg sih. contact seperlunya aja. si addo kaya kaget gt. dy blg ah lu becanda ah lu. masa pcrn ky gt. gw blg sih yaaa ud biasa gt. kontak trs jg buat apa kwk. kalo kangen aja paling. dy nanya lagi, gmn bisa jalan kalo kyk gt?

guess what did i answer?

"it is faith i have in him."

"lu ga takut dy selingkuh geb?", yg addo tanya selanjutnya. gw pkr komitmen macem ini sih butuh kesetiaan, saling percaya, sama iman. with all that, i guess we could make it through any conditions. kita bsa lbh kuat dr apapun. tentunya kalo Tuhan ijinin hal ini terjadi. and it happened to me. i just feel blessed for what He's given me. Dia ngasih gw iman supaya gw bisa percaya ke pasangan gw. i'm glad ken also does. thank you God. thank you Ken, i love you :)

I DONT KNOW

really, i dont know whats the title for this one. but ive just watched a new thai movie that is so-called 'a crazy little thing called love'. I LOOOOOVE it. its definitely one of the best movie ive ever seen. the idea is simple, the story is fun and easy-catching. the story tells us about a thai girl named Nam, whos well known for her ugliness. shes fallin in love with her senior whos also so-called schools star. yeah, this storys kinda fairytale, so i guess yall would probably done guessing whats gonna happen when i finish writing this sentence. but im gonna tell yall anyway. nams got a makeover and she became the most beautiful girl in her school (i also admit it), and even before nam got beautiful, shones already in love with her. in the end nams with shone. the end. thats all. ha ha. typical fairytale-.-

one thing i dont like about this movie is everythings too perfect to be true. it makes me less believe in guys who loved ugly girls. because in fact, im ugly. im fat. im tan. im short. far far away from the ideal girls any boy would like to have. it also makes me feel like,'hey im ugly, nobodys gonna love me no.' :(

the movies seems like really into me, that i couldnt hold my tear. haha yes, i cried half the movie. how embarrassing, going out the cinema with your eyes both reddish and teary.

overall, ive fallen in love with this movie, that i cant forget it. i linger every time i watched it. and another yes, i watched this film over and over again, and ended up with tears over and over again. haha shone made me fall in love too deep with his character. he has planted in my mind that, shone, is a generous man that dont see a girl from only her face, but also her heart. he never really differentiate people. hes just flawless to me :)

..and i don't wanna miss a thing.

oh my god.

i'm so glad because You've given me someone

someone that's far in distance

but close to the heart.

ini another nonsense.

for me its a sweet nonsense.

yeah, i lovee nonsenses.

status fb gue: "each moment with you, i treasure. and i don't wanna miss a thing."

(y) Yoke Maldiputra likes this.

Ken Pradipta

i don't wanna close my eyes

i don't wanna fall asleep

'cause i'd miss you, babe

and i don't wanna miss a thing

44 minutes ago . like . (y) 2 people

oh my god. i was surprised. well, i'm surprised.

he is a spontaneous guy. spontaneously romantic guy.

mungkin buat orang" ini cuma status ttg lirik lagu yg disambung lagi

tapi buat gue beda banget coy. DALEM

haha

we don't contact often

we see each other more scarcely

we're far in distance

but, yes, we're close to the heart. :D

what we build is bigger than the sum of two :) ♥

We both,
You and I.
We're just two ordinary people
But what we build together
Is the essential things we can't miss in our lives
Which is more than two.

Love and trust are.

Not just that
We gain experiences, too.
Experinces of loving someone
And being loved by someone.

We're stepping towards our fourth month now.
It's not about what ifs or hopes,
For what ifs and hopes don't seem strong enough.
It's about going tos.
I long to hold you and your hands when you're down
Soothe you when you get stressed out
Do whatever it takes
To make you smile in a cloudy day
And the most important one,



To LOVE you with all my remaining hearts.



Because by giving or loving all in
You're giving and loving bigger than the biggest.



Happy 4 months anniversary Ken Pradipta ♥

dear ken pradipta,

kmrn aku ngeluh2 gara2 sms aku ga dibalesin hahaha
lucu ya kyk anak kcil aja
habisnya kesel atuh
sms jam 2 sore, diblaes bisa jam 9 ato malah kaga dbles
udhnya si ken sare. booooooo
hahaha kalo kmu baca, ini no offense kok haha
ato aku aja ga sabaran?

kan kmrn pas ngeluh2 itu ngeluhnya ke adek gue
kata dia,"booo lu ga sabaran amat siihh"
gue mikir, emg lu pernah rasain??? hahahahahaha
tpi gue pkr juga sih
gue aja kaga sabaran kali yah ahah
yasudah deh coba lbh sabarrr

not again

oh Gosh! barusan bersama michelle tanera membicarakan ttg pensi.

saya teringat akan satu hal, satu perasaan, satu orang.

org yg terkadang masih membayangi saya.

UGH i hate it when it feels like this.

gw pngen lupa, ato bahkan gausah ketemu deh! errgh sumpah malesin banget ini org.

bikin gw acakadut messed up! oh myyy how could??

makes me vulnerable rawr

sumpah gw pngen teriak ke org itu,"WOY KEMANA MATA LO HEH? I'M RIGHT HERE!!"

surely i wanna scream out loud

kdg gw ngerasa msh syg sama dia

tapi gw baru nyadar aja, kalo gw sygnya trnyata lbh ke temen.

ga lbh.

then, buat apa smua ini? fake dong ya.

dan useless, dia ga syg gw though.

masalahnyaaaaa otak itu tdk selalu selaras dgn hati. nah itu dia.

that's my point ahaha.

stop this or you'll get your head at the fridge by tomorrow morning, you hamhead! ahaha

may 11, 2010, a day we won't forget

may 11 2010 a day we won't forget.

beneran deh! sok kapan lagi liat cewe2 tomboi pake hal yg mereka jauhin

dandan pake make up

pake kebaya

pake high heels

JADI PEREMPUAN TULEN

langka bangeeet tp syg gw ga pnya foto fotonya

habis udh disuruh pulang

jadi ngga bisa foto foto-____-

hari trkhir ktmu temen2 komplit adanya

hari trkhir ngejalanin acara bareng mereka

sekaligus hari pertama buat belajar

belajar nyimpen mereka dalem hati

baru malem ini juga nih postnya soalny kmrn cape banget haha

*so sibuk

dan baru malem ini juga termenung

kpkran tb2 aja pas lagi buka facebook

ada 1 org yg gw hindarin

pdhl itu hari trkhir, mgkn trkhir, kita ktmu

gw liat bnyk yg foto sama lu

emg lu cakep sih gw akuin

dan gw trpkr knp gw ga foto sama lu?

gw pkr lg, itu mimpi deh kyny

nyapa sama congrats satu sama lain aja ngga

apalagi foto

hhh

yasuda lha ya yg udh mah udh

keep moving forward!

*ngmg doang sih gmpg tp nglakuinnya itu susaaaah -,-

bingung

kenapa gini sih?

gw ga mau kaya gini. gw mau balik kaya dlu.

jaman kita masih tmen dan ini smw ngga terjadi

skrng lu udh pergi dan jauh banget dari gw

udh sama dia.

gw sedih, tapi gw seneng liat lu bahagia

ga pernah gw sampe sedalem ini

please, anggep gw ada. cuma itu yg gw mau dari lo okay?

apa itu susah? sakit?

skrng gw bngung.

ada seseorg di sekitar gw, dia sayang sama gw, care.

jauh daripada lu.

tapi gw takut kalo org baru ini cm jadi pelarian gw.

ga mauu ga maksuddd

gw juga sayang dia. gw cuma ragu dan takut kalo kjadian dulu keulang lagi

gw ga mau jahat sama dia. dia ga tau apa2

aduuuuhhhh susah yaaaaaaa :'(

aah lepas jugaaa. msh syg sih, tp yah mw gmn. kalo syg kan hrs bsa let go btul? :)

go get a life! ♥

:(

mgkn ga seharusnya gw ada di samping dia.
mgkn gw ga pantes ma dia, ga cocok.
mgkn dia cuma mainin aja dari awal.
mgkn baiknya hubungan ini ga pnah ada.
ga perlu ada.
ga perlu ketemu.
ga perlu.

help!

gw pnya seseorg. seseorg ini dlu dket aja sih sama gw tp kalo ga ada dy, gw ngerasa empty banget.

we used to be good friends. we used to hang out together. we used to chit chat, scuttlebutt, made those brouhahas in the class. we WERE good friends.

nowadays, MORE than just a friend.

awalnya gw agak ragu sama dy. ato kagok sih tpatnya. luckily, i'm in love with my best. i do care about him. gw sneng banget waktu dy bilang dy jg suka gw. logika gw mkr mgkn bakal lama. tapi ga tw knp prasaan gw ragu banget. gw coba jalanin. and it's just fine. "nothing could go wrong," i said to myself one night.

i was wrong unfortunately.

stlh baru aja bbrp bulan, dy mulai berubah, slowly but sure. berubah banget banget. kalo lu dket pasti kerasa banget. gw crta k tmen gw krn gw bru prtama kali ngalamin ky gni. dy blng cb jlnin dlu aja. mgkn krn kita bakal nghadepin UN dan those school tests jadi dy mw bljr dlu for a while, you have to understand him even he dont ask you to.

oke gw tunggu sampe stlh UN. hari hari UN gw kesiksa banget nungguin sms dia. biasanya sms cm nyapa ato apa gt, gw udh sneng banget. tapi nyatanya inbox gw sepanjang hari kosong melompong. palingan sms dari operator yg bikin dag dig dug kirain sms dr dia. huuh

okedeh, gw pkr hbs UN. sabar tinggal brp hari lagi.

hari trkhir UN, biasa lah hbs pulang kan suka makan tuh. gw ngjk dia makan aja rame2. gw pkr dy bakal balik ky dlu, my old best best friend.but truth always hurts us anyway. that's what happened. gw kecewa bnget.

stlh lama pnantian gw, trnyata ga ada hasil! bah!

gw cb sms akhirnya, soalnya gw yakin dia ga akan belajar lah, wong besoknya lbur jg. gw cb sms singkat padat jelas standar: halo lagi apa?

dia, stlh brp jam kmudian: sbb halo lg mw makan nih brb yah

gw, scpt kilat: okedeh :)

gw tungguin sampe tgh malem, masa sih makan dari siang sampe tgh malem? its impossible, he wasnt eating, he was playing. dan sampe tgh mlm itu gw nungguin sampe putus asa. gw akhirnya beraniin sms: halo masi makan? wkwk

dia ngga bales absolutely definitely no doubt about it.

gw sedih bnget mlm itu, tp gw ngga bsa nangis. mw blogging jg udh kburu bete malas. kebayang apa rasanya?

gw akhirnya imun mw sms dia. takut ngeganggu, takut ngga dibales. muncul pkran aneh2 di pkran gw. mgkn dy bosen? bsa aja. mgkn dy ga pnah syg gw dr awal? bsa aja. mgkn ada org ketiga? bsa banget. gw udh putus harapan, dan itu masih gw rasain sekarang. gw ga tw hrs ngapain. gw mw ngjk dy ngmg serius pun ngga akan ngefek kyny.

everything has a meet and a goodbye, and i guess this relationship has reach its edge. just in time.

p.s. kalo mw nyaranin apa, komen aja. gw trbuka kok, thankful malah :D oya kalo kamu jg baca, dan udh ngrti gmn situasinya ayo ngmg. okay? let's talk.

uneg uneg sya:(

gw kangen sama lu
kmn si lu?
kalo gw butuh lu ga ada
kalo lu butuh gw ada man

dulu lu selalu ada bwt gw, numbuhin harapan gw
tapi skrng? gw ngerasa sampah, ga pnya tujuan
ngerasa bitchy

gw kangen lu yg dulu
please come back
i can survive no longer without you
or i would gone mad whenever you meet me again
so, please?

have i found any trust?

mm gmn ngmgnya yah? ini post kedua hr ini. wkwk. tumben dah gw. mm to the point aj, i dont wanna make this long. gw kn bru menjalin hubungan sm seseorg. gw pnh dgr:

"love is about trust. if don't trust the one you love, then find another person you can trust."

gw cuma blm bs nemuin kprcyaan itu. tp gw syg sm dy. gw prcy sm dy, tp gw ga prcy sm org lain. gw tkt kehilangan dy. takuuut bgt. banget banget. blm pnh gw tkt mpe ky gini. apa gw yg tllu overprotect aja? apakah smwnya bakal ky gini trs, lancar ga ad mslh? gw takut banget kalo dy pergi dr hidup gw. gw tkt kl dy jadi musuh gw. gw tkt kl gw ga bs liat dy senyum bwt gw lagi. gw tkt khilangan dy. gw tkt. ak ga mau km pergi. ak syg km.

white Christmas (:

hmm ga kerasa yah udah natal lagi. bentar lagi kita bakal ganti taun lg, jadi taun 2010. hmm gue mau cerita dikit yah tentang natal gue taun ini.

jadi..ehhm. natalan ini gue berencana pergi ke bali bareng keluarga gue. dari tanggal 25 des - 2 jan baru pulang. gue naik pesawat tgl 25 pagi, jadi gue nginep dulu di jakarta tgl 24 nya. sedikit flashback nih, gue lagi suka dan deket sama sala satu tmen gue, namanya --piip--. gile lah, gue suka bangget haha. soalnya dy tuh anknya nyantei abis, baik, easy going gitu lah. rame pokoknya sampe betah gitu bareng2 dia trus. ehee :) yah tau lah rasanya jatuh cinta ;p hm lanjut. trus kita udah sering smsan gitu, hang out bareng dll. gue sih ngerasa deket, tp tau kecengan dia aja kaga. euhh. dia ga pernah cerita gitu tentang his own life ke gue. pdhl gue sering share ke dia. gue ngerasa no hope gitu. apa lg ada tmen gue yg deket jg ma dy. sekelas pula -_- langsung patah semangat. tp temen2 gue semangatin spy ttp usaha dah bwt dapet ap yg lu mau. best result comes from good efforts. kata mereka dia jg ky yg suka gitu. gue tetep ga percaya sblm dgr dari orgnya lah. tapi SEDIKIT percaya, soalnya kita pernah telponan malah. haha. jd yah, jalanin dulu aja apa yg gue bisa. hmm dan sekitar tanggal 23 malem gitu, gue lg smsan ma dia. gini nih cuplikan smsnya, dimulai dari gue.

"ehm maho nih ye. emg lu lg sk sapa?"
"mau tau?"
"mau lahh, penasaran gila. ga ad yg tau lu sk sp sjk dlu. ehee"
"hm gue ngmg kalo lu ngmg dluan deh"
"aah lu dluan deh. yg gue maluin hehe"
"knp hrs gue dluan?"
"gpp si, yaaah pgn tau aja"
"hm yauda. gue udh suka ma lu dari dulu sbnernya. hehe"
"wew. sama dong haha"

*tapi gue pake nama neng, dan dia pake nama mas. hoek too disgusting to be written down haha



yaah, stlh itu everything's change. jd lbh terbuka aja kalo suka. hm. dia bilang tadinya mau cari tgl bgs. tp ssh haha. trs ktny mau pas kita lagi trip ke jogja, tp ga dpt jg wktunya. hmm ya akhirnya kita putusin pas natal aja. jdnya pas 251209 jam 00.00 kita officially in a relationship :) so sweet! dia tuh spontaneous bgt orgnya. ditambah lg dia yg cuek, buat gue ini kejutan bgt. kadang dia cuek, kadang jd so sweet :) gila lah. gue bersyukur bgt dia bs bareng gue. i hope it'll last forever. omg ga nyangka bgt. Tuhan ngasi gue hadiah paling indah natal ini. sampe pas dia nyatain tgl 23nya gue pkr itu mimpi haha. omg sampe nampar2 diri ;p hmm udh deh skian aja. cukup lah kabar2 sya. wkwk update soon!